I want you to understand

I wish that for one day someone could walk in my shoes, see things through my eyes, feel everything that I do, be able to know everything that goes through my head. Good or bad. I want you to understand what my day is like. I want you to understand what your words do to me. I want you to understand these depressing thoughts that go through my head all the time. I want you to feel what I feel when I think about what you say to me. I want you to understand everything. Don't think for one second that your words don't hurt. 

What am I afraid of losing when I have nothing?

Everyone still can't see past my fake smile and look down deep to see the real me for once.
Do they even want to?

I can say I have friends. Just "friends"
Not the kind of friends that will notice when I'm having a bad day though.
Just the friends that want to take you along for your oppinion cuz they know that you won't say something bad about them.

I've become a good liar.
I can lie straight to your face and you don't care enough to tell whether or not I'm lying.
You don't care enough to reach out to me.

But did I ever try to reach out to you?
No.
Did I ever call you at 2AM because I couldn't sleep because I had way too much on my mind?
Did I ever roll my sleeve up and show you my scars so you would actually see them for once and not hide them?
No.
Did I ever make an attempt to talk to you about myself?
No.
So I guess I can't blame just you.

Updateee!

I'm soo sorry I haven't been able to put up a new post in awhile but I've been crazyy busy with school and family and all that stuff. I'm probably in the 5th-ish week of my Freshmen year and I love it, well some of it. I'm okay with the classes and I am currently passing all of them with an A. I hate to say that I have already fallen hard for someone... I know what your thinking. "You just started school and you already like someone?!?!" I know, I know. I've heard it all, but I'm okay with it. Somewhat. Oh and his name is Chris and he asked me to Homecoming and I guess thats how it all started. I have a slight feeling that he may be playing me...but then again when I asked a couple of his friends, they all said he's not like that at all...Well let's hope not...
This past weekend I got to see my niece that I haven't seen in awhile, and it was alot of fun =]
So I'm not exactly sure what else to talk about, so I'm gonna go get started on my History homework. So bye for now =]

High School

Well from the picture I'm pretty sure you can guess what I'm going to talk about. HIGH SCHOOL!! Yes I am currently a Freshman...

Well Tuesday September 1st was my first day of high school, and everything that could go wrong...did go wrong...

So ya know I just did my normal morning routine and what I thought was a good time to leave the house to leave for school was wayyy off. I got to school around 10 minutes before the bell would ring. So of course I can't get my locker open for like 3 minutes(and I might add that at Freshman orientation they gave me the wrong locker combo so I never got to look and find any of my classes because I spent the whole time messing around with my locker) and then I get my stuff and try to find my first class which of course I couldn't find. And I also might add that my school only has 2 floors but since I didn't get to find my classes at orientation I had absolutely no clue where my first class was and which was on the second floor. So I had to ask one of the office ladies to help me find my class and I walk in late and everyone stares at me...

That was pretty much how my entire day went...I couldn't get in my locker so I was late to almost EVERY SINGLE CLASS...what a great first impression right...?

So walking through the halls and seeing all of the upperclassmen is definatly intimidating...but I hate to say it but try not to get in anyones way, I mean in my experience so far I'm already running late to class I don't need to be arguing with a Junior because I ran into her in the hall.

So I will run down my schedule with you.

1st hour- English

2nd hour- PE(which will suck)

3rd hour- Applied Science

4th hour- Lunch(10:25)

5th hour- Algebra

6th hour- World History

7th hour- Art

8th hour- Study Hall(which is awesome!)

So and tomorrow which is September 3rd I will hopefully be going to my first high school football game as a Freshman, so that will be exciting =]

Well I don't think theres anything else that I wanted to talk about so I think I'm going to wrap this up.

So bye guys! =]

- Aimee